10th April 2012: My World Took 180° Turn

10th April 2012: The most amazing day of my life.......... It was so rich, so delighting, so pure, so touching and an out of the world experience that could make up a complete woman in me.

Recollecting the words by my loving dad and stories by my best-friend mom, I was back indulged in the little spluttering and bubbling going in inside me. Wow, it went and it went on, it would not stop, or may be, I also didn’t want it to stop. Still wondering, yes, a life is breathing inside me.

No more I have to imagine that someone is coming in my life, my very own, my inner self, my reflection and of course the certificate (as I love to call it) of my relationship of 10 years with the love of my life. After months of anticipation and nervousness, it was amazing to feel it for almost the whole day. Naughty darling just moved after every few words I wrote on my monotonous workstation (me, being a content writer). Suddenly, the new father sends an SMS making me realise that I am not the only contributor to its existence :P “How r u both of my babies?” He loves to call me baby too as he believes that I have still not grown..... because I still crave for unusual things like shouting unnecessarily, jumping on bed, fussing to eat and much more............

Waiting for the next screening when we will see its little fingers moving ( I don’t know, this is what my Dr. Says)

Wonder Days

I wonder whether I should take a step forward

Or wait till the final call comes through dad’s letter.

Lying amidst a big decision to make in life,

It has become tough to throw up for better.

Papa, oh papa, you have shown me the path,

Show this time too, cuddle this time too.

Answers will be so easy, for your child,

And so easy will be for me to accept the glue.

Yes, it is indeed not easy to travel so long

With hands clutched so strong.

Hard to accept still, I will be mom, I know

I don’t sound like an Indian woman who struggles lifelong.

But can’t take out the anxiety of ‘being’

‘To be’ or ‘not be’, ‘A MOM’

Don’t know what to do,

When I have still not forgotten my prom.

Anyone out there, who could convince me take the step,

Anyone who is keen

I am sure dad you would have, if you have been............ :( :(

No One Can Understand my Dreams

Immense emotions are surrounding,
Deep sorrows are propounding
Somewhere someone screams
No One Can Understand my Dreams

Heart feels but cannot complain
All hints go in vain;
World is empty, it seams,
No One Can Understand my Dreams

Passions arise and calm down,
Who cares who I am from which town?
Everything settles, blue or green
No One Can Understand my Dreams

The angel of my life hides,
He is also lost at the time of tides;
Then how should I feel what he means
No One Can Understand my Dreams

Dear ones sit and go
Trees, flowers, sky left to know
Because only they lack routines
No One Can Understand my Dreams

Simply the grief ends with tears
No one to see my sheers
Eyes filled up with past scenes
No One Can Understand my Dreams