Wonder Days

I wonder whether I should take a step forward

Or wait till the final call comes through dad’s letter.

Lying amidst a big decision to make in life,

It has become tough to throw up for better.

Papa, oh papa, you have shown me the path,

Show this time too, cuddle this time too.

Answers will be so easy, for your child,

And so easy will be for me to accept the glue.

Yes, it is indeed not easy to travel so long

With hands clutched so strong.

Hard to accept still, I will be mom, I know

I don’t sound like an Indian woman who struggles lifelong.

But can’t take out the anxiety of ‘being’

‘To be’ or ‘not be’, ‘A MOM’

Don’t know what to do,

When I have still not forgotten my prom.

Anyone out there, who could convince me take the step,

Anyone who is keen

I am sure dad you would have, if you have been............ :( :(

Kaise Likhdun Kuchh Bhi

Maine jeevan mein andhkar dekha,

Kaise use ujala likhun?

Jisne khade khade kapkapi di

Kaise use sahara likhun?

Jise kabhi aankh bhar dekha nahi,

Kaise use deedar likhun?

Jab mila dukh mila,

Kaise use uphaar likhun?

Din mein hua judaai ka ehsaas,

Kaise use bahaar likhun?

Raat mein hua yadon ka aghaas

Kaise use tyohaar likhun?

Dhire dhire bikharne laga kajal

Kaise use main roop likhun?

Suraj ki roshni ko khyalon ne ghera

Kaise use main dhoop likhun?

Itna sab hoke bhi sabhi se hasi boli

Kaise jeevan ko takraar likhun?

Par jo hua uska kya

Kaise sitmo ko pyaar likhun?

Talk with a Lonely Night

Silent Night came to my door,
Softly said that life means more,
I agree with you my dear I said,
But sorrows surround me each day on bed.

Life has plenty of roads stored in you see,
It takes years to give shade for a tree.
I have been struggling for a long time I complained,
Every minute has passed with mind strained.

Love, care, support and peace you need I know,
Almighty will give you all at one fixed go.
I’ll be waiting for the day, Oh!! Sweet Light
I’ll be waiting for the star that’ll sparkle bright.

You have brought pearls down on earth,
Then why do you break on chicken’s birth.
These pearls need to be polished,
Unfinished buildings often get demolished.

When you have decided to twinkle like a star,
Then why don’t you live as if playing guitar.
Live life like music in very hour,
Live life like dazzling wine at a bar

This was a conversation between me and night
That silent soul showed me the path of light.
Trees swinging that night ended my fright,
Now, life seems to be delicious cheese pasta in every bite……


(Dedicated to my beloved Papa)

Things Women Want Husbands To Remember

It is true that “Woman listens 50%, understands 20% but speaks 200%”. Though being a woman myself is not a very good idea to agree to something like this still truth cannot be denied. Now, when it comes to men, I feel at times and I am sure many of you will agree that they hardly listen to anything but still understand it all. Well, the fact is they don’t understand but pretend to understand it all. This is the most pissing off nature they possess. Consequently, they do not remember anything on this earth except, the lingerie the slim girl wears on that TV commercial or the last time his wife said “I am in a dirty mood today :P...so should we....”

Here are a few things which can help married men on earth to manage their married life. Remember, your lady doesn’t want much in life. Trivial things matter for her may be merely, you calling her ‘girl’ even if she is 35 can turn her on.....

Commitment

Did you promise her a dinner on this weekend? Or did you promise her you would accompany her to her favourite uncle’s place? Remember, these things may not be important for you but are really close to her heart. She already made plans on Monday for Friday evening regarding what she will wear, which hair clip she will wear and which clutch she will carry. So, if she comes to know that you don’t remember anything on Thursday, be prepared for her bonkers look and dare not say “This is called Shaadi (marriage).”

Food and Beverages

Remember the last time you went to eat out and she told you that she loved Pineapple raita with Butter Naan and Chicken. The reason for telling was not that you should also start loving it. It was told so that next time when you are out, you should order it for her. For a woman, these small things matter a lot as they show her how much you care and respect her taste. Believe me, that a time will come when you yourself will not be able to have Butter Naan and Chicken without Pineapple raita and things will become easy for you and lovable for her.

The best thing in woman is that even if you do something for her repeatedly, she falls in love with you repeatedly, On the contrary, for you guys, it may become a developed ‘habit or duty’. So, remember to order Virgin Mojito if she loves it with KFC’s luscious chicken.

Appraisal

There may be a norm of yearly or half yearly appraisals in your office, however, your wife needs it monthly. Do not forget to do that on one of those Saturday nights. The venue is your bedroom with mute TV which may help her if she is pointed out for something negative. Remember, that shouting on her may not be the only solution. Appraisal with her means you would start with all good things she has done for your family. It is her duty to satisfy your parents and keep them happy but still she wants to be appreciated right from the beginning, the day she came in her dad’s hands. So, she is a princess in her own way and thus working at home may not be her cup of tea always (especially if she is working).

Thereafter, once she becomes happy with the good stuff, telling negatives in a sandwiched manner may help her accept your blames in a positive way.

There may be a lot more. But let me know if you like the post so that we can discuss more. However, I feel for you guys too. So, soon the post will be about “Things men want from their Wives :P, though not much.

Is this is Something that we Call ‘Shaadi’?

I remember the last time he said “This is what they call ‘Marriage’”.

He often says that he wonders why people in Indian society consider marriage as a liability and burden where we both have united to share the happiness and sorrows. At the same time he defends the idea of wedding being a curse in life as the freedom of man gets lost in fulfilling his responsibilities.

Last time when he believed that his friends were right was when I merely asked him to stay on with me as it was Saturday and I wanted his presence after a daylong journey to oblige someone from his family only.

I am broken, I am lost, I am mutilated when I hear these words “My friends are right. This is what we call ‘Shaadi’ or rather they call. This is not what I came into his life for. My problem is that I want him to be with me. That is it.

Well, its not that he doesn’t give me attention. It is not that he does not spend time with me. It is only that in that new world (which is now 2 years old), there is no one who can give the calmness to my soul and this is the reason I yearn for his presence every now and then. May be because I cannot move out, hang around or have a pint of beer standing on the streets with my friends and smoke away the grudges of my life and all these Indian relationships I keep on worrying for.

And thereafter he returns with same stunning smile and an expression of apology on his face when I have also been thinking for 4 hours “This is what they call ‘Marriage’”.

The week starts with bafflement of satisfying my inner self till the next weekend and the same old story begins again. I want pleasure, I want him, I want something that he does not know or may be I also do not know.

The only thing I want is "To Be With Him" and believe “this is Something that we Call ‘Shaadi’”........

I Need Someone Today

Someone too close to my heart

Someone too far from my eyes

Someone too soothing to my blood

Someone too seducing to my senses

I need someone today

Someone who cares for me

Someone who lives for me

Someone who needs me too

Someone who is deficient without me

I need someone today

Someone who can make me feel better

Someone who can gather if I shatter

Someone who can hold me tight

Someone who heels me at one sight

I need someone today

No One Can Understand my Dreams

Immense emotions are surrounding,
Deep sorrows are propounding
Somewhere someone screams
No One Can Understand my Dreams

Heart feels but cannot complain
All hints go in vain;
World is empty, it seams,
No One Can Understand my Dreams

Passions arise and calm down,
Who cares who I am from which town?
Everything settles, blue or green
No One Can Understand my Dreams

The angel of my life hides,
He is also lost at the time of tides;
Then how should I feel what he means
No One Can Understand my Dreams

Dear ones sit and go
Trees, flowers, sky left to know
Because only they lack routines
No One Can Understand my Dreams

Simply the grief ends with tears
No one to see my sheers
Eyes filled up with past scenes
No One Can Understand my Dreams

The Day Begins:

She opens her eyes and realized that her husband beside needs to get up too. Still struggling with her own sleep, she tries to wake him up. “Get up Darling!!!, You need to go to the office.”

Thereafter she takes bath and leaves the room to serve the best breakfast and cook the best lunch for her husband. Oh!!! Don’t forget she is working too. She is a post graduate in one of the most desired subjects.

This is “The Indian Woman”. The soul full of desires, anticipation, expectations….But all in vain.

Imagine a 25 year old woman married one year ago. She is struggling with the expectations that her in-laws have. She would not sleep more; she would not use a single thing without asking her mother-in-law and would always be conscious while even lifting her eyelid. Consciousness has become a part of her life and she does not know for how long.

There a lot more to understand a woman in India who got recently married…..the day has just begun……….